Saturday, June 15, 2013

Sunyi.... Hari Bapa

26 Julai

 2 tahun yang sunyi buat aku sekeluarga. Mak apa tah lagi kan.

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yang menenangkan jiwa hanyalah redha dan redha dan redha. Sehingga sekarang dan sampai bila-bila. Sebelah jiwa yang dah pergi tetap rasa kosong =(..time will heals everything,insya Allah..Allah akan bagi kita lepas rindu biar dalam mimpi..the most challenging part is bila tengok abah orang lain atau pakcik2 yang agak2 sebaya dgn umur arwah abah, sayu aje hati ni. Insya Allah, Allah akan kuatkan hati aku dan keluarga aku.

Al-fatihah


SELAMAT HARI BAPA TO DAD OF STEEL... suamiku muuaacks



Friday, June 14, 2013

Thirteen Years of Friendship

Dear My Huggable Husband,

It’s been 5  years together as a husband and wife, but you has been my bestest friend for past 13 years. . I repeat THIRTEEN YEARS! Thanks sayang for being there, and being you.. (walaupun ada masanya terlintas “apsal la aku jumpa mamat nih” at times when we disagree on something)..

Today when I accidentally playback a full pack of mp3 love rock songs in my office, of course i remember you. The folder  is packed with old rock love songs, those songs that were played during our friends-turn-to-more-than-friend-stage. Kalau la ada lagi archieve chat masa irc dulu, people can called me sewel dek tersengih-sengih ingatkan kisah-kisah lama.

I am so lucky to have you by my side. even though when there was a time that I  thought we should never knew each other, I knew I  was wrong about that and I  knew everything happened for a reason. I know how does it feels like when I had a big hole in my heart.


and I also know how to appreciate you in my life. Thank you sayang for being my sayang and being the Ayah  to our Aliyah.  Aliyah love to play & bully with you.  Yes, you are so right about “isteri aku yg suka pot pet pot pet”..

I really hope we could meet again in Jannah.  I don’t  want anyone else.  I just want you.



Sayang, sayang muaaacckks.


Comel la tew kununnya


Monday, June 3, 2013

Get Baby

"Nini, Aliyah nak adik tu". "Kesian Aliyah takde kawan". "Nini, bila nak nombor 2 ni". "Anak sorang je ke, Nini?" Bla Bla Bla Bla


Anak. 


Ini soalan-soalan lazim untuk aku sejak setahun yang lepas. Mana-mana aku pergi,ini soalan wajib untuk aku. Nape eh orang tak tanye dekat hubs kita. Nape kena tanye orang perempuan? Sebab perempuan yang mengandung eh? Bila nak kan anak, kena usaha.  Kena ada kerjasama. Kalau dah 3-4 tahun takde anak, suami & isteri kena lah buat pemeriksaan. Bukan isteri aje yang kena buat, aku ada kawan yang kes dia macam ni, dia beriya-iya pegi turun naik hospital buat berbagai ujian to make sure yang dia betul-betul sihat. The reproductive specialist  even said 'beautiful pattern' . Tak cukup turun naik hospital, siap cuba rawatan tradisional lagi. Tapi, sayangnya suami dia, takde buat apa-apa tindakan pun. "Hai Bang, awak confident ke awak tu betul-betul sihat?" Kalau satu pihak aje yang bersungguh, yang satu lagi pihak sambil lewa membesarkan tido je memang la tak jadik satu benda pun kan. Kesian aku tengok kawan aku tu. Bila ada reunion, dia memang try to avoid jumpa kitorang semua. 

Nasib aku baik, sebab dah ada Aliyah. Cuba bayangkan orang lain yang belum ada anak. Tak ke kesian dekat diorang. As for me, aku memang biasa buat pekak tuli. Eheee tu memang kebolehan aku. Mulut orang memang tak boleh tutup. 

Both hubs and me trying to conceive since last year. Tapi bila cerita pesal rezeki, anak, jodoh maut. Siapa lah kita nak persoalan kan tu semua kan. Sapa la tak nak ada anak kan. Aku sebenarnya kalau boleh nak ada 4 orang anak. Tapi umur pun dah macam ni, ntah mampu ntah tak nak dapat 4 tu. 

 I think it's about timing. Maybe we need to do it during the day.. hahahaha . As you know both hubs & I  we are long distance marriage... every 2 weeks per month he only back to KL...  that only leaves us  and it has to be during the ovulation. Otherwise, it will not work either. Sapa cakap, nak mengandung ni senang, ingat pakai tembak aje ke. Tricky tau. 


Aliyah, ada sorang ni pun dah syukur Alhamdulillah. Tu la intan payung, delima, platinum, gunung-ganang aku. Kalau tanya Aliyah, dia nak adik tak. Dia ok je. Boy ke girl semuanya dia ok.  Tapi, tu la belum rezeki Aliyan nak ada kawan


Suami balik hari ni and today's chances, it's safe .
Hahahahaha cuba lagi ok